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its hard to make some decisions. should i do this, try that or change everything. it is so much easier dispensing advice to a friend. you try your best to give the most objective outcome, base on your opinion as the 3rd party looking in. you just look in and distinctively know the right thing to say to help solve the problem that is ailing your friend. come crunch time, is it possible for you to access your own damage that is happening within your life. it is easy enlist the help of a friend to look in from afar and summise your problems for you instead. sometimes its easier that way. when in truth you have long known the answer to solving your own problems. the solution has been staring at you for a long long time. why is it so hard then to take the first step in rectifying what ails you then?

i know it's hard to face the impending doom and the insurmountable task of righting the wrongs. i know it's worth fighting for it, so do it for yourself. i cannot fight the good fight for you. i can only be the friend that you are to me. cliche it is, but you must put in the hard yards yourself, i am here to pick you up and remind you from time to time that you aren't stuck in a rut. if things can't possibly be any worse then it already is right now, it means that things can only get better from this point on. do it because you know that you want it. do it because you want something better, and it is well worth the effort. in many ways we are one and the same. we did it because we chose to do it, and likewise we are here because we wanted to be here.

do it, i want you to succeed because i know it is in you to succeed. what else could be more pleasurable then to know that starting from today, its one day less to getting to where you want to end up. Judy Garland sang it, but little if anyone else knows about it. Liverpool used it as their anthem and swan song, You Never Walk Alone. remember?

Walk on, walk on, with hope in your heart,
And you'll never walk alone,
You'll never walk alone.
J.Garland

if not now, then when? if not me, then who?